LOVE (Part I)

I suppose we all just like the feeling of love.  Love gives us a feeling of acceptance; it shows us that someone really likes who we are.  What happens when the person whom you thought loved you stops calling? What happens when they spend so much time with you that you fall in love and they don't; how when the time that you spent together was so beautiful?  How can you show someone that you are different from everything they are use to? What if they have adapted and become what they are use to? I believe the saddest part of Love is the fact that it is a game.  You must play the game of love and risk breaking or having your heart broken everytime.  Now, the great thing about games...you can choose not to play. Hallelujah to that! I have always been a complete ball of love, it is who I am.  I love people, places, & things, much more than most people.  The places and things I love the most.  But people?  People lie to you, steal from you, hurt you...and it's always the people you love the most that do these things.  Why is that?  I suppose we all dream of the love of Romeo & Juliet (without the suicide of course), Edward & Bella, or The Farm Boy & Buttercup.  But I suppose that is why they are fictional characters: true love does not exist in reality.  I feel as tho no one is capable of being faithful anymore...too many options; no one puts any effort into being romantic, spicing up a relationship, or trying to get to know the person you say they love.  How many of you know your mates favorite color or colors?  Favorite movie, food, where they see themselves in 10 years?  Have you even asked these questions? Do you really care about that person or what he or she does for you?  I have noticed that many women only want a man who has money and status?  Bitch you don't have these things, so what the hell makes you think he'll want you for anything other than pussy or to be arm candy?  You have placed yourself in that realm of ignorance in hopes that he'll make you #1.  I have noticed that men have trouble being honest simply because they want to have their cake and eat it too!  How hard is it to say "I'm not interested in being in a relationship, I just wanna have sex"?  You cowards cant do it because it will be a blow to your ego if she says no because you really want that chance to open her legs.  So you'd rather play with her emotions; do everything you have to do physically, mentally and emotionally to get between her legs and then when she gives in..poof the phone calls slow down, not because the sex was bad, but because there are sooo many options out there.  Then you wonder why it happens to you one day or to your daughter.  Then "bitches ain't shit"! Truth is none of us know exactly what we want, none of us will ever get exactly what we want because it only exists in fairytales. Now, if you are over 40 single with no children because you are waiting for this special fairytale love... wake the f*ck up!  Find someone before your ass ends up old and alone in an old folks home.  Because the bottomline is true love doesn't exist, but at least there is some kind of love out there; it's break your heart at the drop of a dime type love, but it is all we have. For those of you who have been in love, I really wish it would last for you  because the world we live in today...it's really sad.  Guys will have sex with anything and women will have sex with your man, they will even charge him for it.  So to all of you women out their who think that their man is faithful:  WAKE UP DUMB DUMB! For the love of God woman wake up.  Everyone cheats in some capacity.  I do hope that I have evoked emotion in all of you.  Don't mind me, I'm just bitter about this thing we call  Love.

I'm Just Sayin

it never ceases to amaze me, the things which are actually important to people. things that really dont frickin matter, i.e. having the latest gucci bag or dating only athletes and movie stars. there are things which are so much  more important like world peace, homelessness, heroin addiction etc... i once heard a woman say to a man whom she use to date..."hey sweetie, this is my new man...he has the same car as you but his house is bigger"...wtf!?  what's even funnier is the man she said this to is Jamie Foxx...lol! This is not something which matters but you cant tell that ignorant broad that. At any rate my point is what really matters in life (in my opinion) is having someone to love , family values, a kind heart and a true friend...above all else God! I'm Just Saying.

FEAR

The worst thing in the world that can happen to someone is fear. Fear can and will stop you from fulfilling your dreams, experiencing your life, loving the right person, etc..FEAR STOPS EVERYTHING!  For instance, let's say you are an actor who has to move to L.A. but the man/woman of your dreams is in Spokane, Washington; the FEAR of losing out on love may very well keep you away from the red carpet; you began to think about the move to L.A.. Once you have begun thinking about it, it is all down hill from there.  "It's too hard to make it, everyone out there is an actor, I can't afford it, I'll be too far away from my loved ones, I'll never experience true love again, I'm too old, too fat, too skinny..whatever" My point is losing out on love would be the least of your problems. How about actually making the move to L.A., you go out for an audition and Jack Nicholson happens to be the actor giving the damn audition...now that's fear.  While things are always easier said than done, I suppose it all comes down to strength and how much of it you have. Can you face your fears? In all honesty, I find it difficult to face my fears everyday.  How does one just get up and go?  How does one just walk away from certain things? Perhaps one can admit the fear that they have and use it to his/her advantage. Everyday that you wake up and put off something that would truly make you happy is a form of fear.  As long as you are breathing, nothing can stop you, but you. Fear will have you unable to do anything in life, down to the simplest of things, i.e. go to the gym, tell someone you love them, push your way through a crowd to get your headshot to someone, create something, write something, put on a show, sing, dance, go spilonking, buy a motorcycle, wear a bright yellow dress, anything.  Again, we must face our fears, we must face who we are, we must find ways to cope or wake up one day 50 years old in tears because we didn't even try, because we were full of FEAR!